Pain sears my heart

Pain sears my heart.

It sears my soul.

It takes my breath away.

 

I struggle to see through the tears.

I struggle to breathe my own breath.

I struggle to live each minute.

 

Pain sears my heart.

 

I just want it to end.

I just want it to stop.

I just want it to go away.

 

But, it doesn’t.

It stabs me like a spear pierces its prey.

It chases me all day and well into the night.

It haunts my awakenings and its stalks

me in the darkness.

 

It makes me want to run away.

It makes me want to hide.

It makes me want to give up.

It makes me want to give in.

 

Just to stop the pain.

Just to end the suffering.

Just to stop the silent deaths that I feel deep inside.

 

The silent deaths that I have felt over and over so many times in the past.

 

Pain sears my heart.

 

The pain of another time comes bursting forth

The pain of another place comes calling and beckoning.

 

Reminding me of just how painful it all can be.

 

The pain of another love, a first love, reminds me of

just how painful

it

can

be.

 

I don’t want it all to feel

that

way

ever

again.

 

And, I will do anything to make it stop…

 

Even take away what it wants most.

Even end what it needs…

Just to stop the silent tears from falling

ever so slowly deep within my heart.

 

Pain sears my heart.

It sears my soul.

It takes my very breath away.

 

I struggle to breathe my own breath.

 

One thought on “Pain sears my heart

  1. Craig Lindell says:

    The pain will never go away.
    It is the crucible out of which those out of the way places in your heart find their courage and their freedom
    David Brooks put it this way:
    “You can be broken or you can be broken open.”
    See you Monday but If you need to talk
    Just call
    Craig

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