I was very, very close to giving up or perhaps I should say giving in to my own self-sabotage.
Let me explain.
Jay Peak took a lot of out me.
So, I self-combusted. Started binging. Stopped running. Wanted to fire my coach. You know, self-sabotage.
I am so glad that I have started to see my own behavioral patterns. Because this isn’t the first time with this rodeo.
Why do you think I haven’t gotten past the marathon distance?
I was supposed to go to Moab, Utah and run a 50K this past February. As the date got closer, I ate my heart out and fell apart both physically and mentally. Came up with tons of excuses too.
So, I am so grateful that I was able to quickly push the pause button. And, that my coach did his job. He talked me off of the ledge. Some may say well he is paid to do that. Sure, but that is what a coach does, right?
So, I got right back into training and eating right.
I worked on Saturday leading a Board retreat in Bridgeport, CT. So, Sunday I signed up for the Surftown Half Marathon in Westerly, RI. What a cool race it was.
I aced it with a speedy, crushing (as Coach called it) 2:19 time for a pace somewhere around 10:35 for 13.1 miles. I was cooking and on fire. I felt good. I used a Galloway 5:00 minute run with 1-minute walk segment.
Here the ole girl is proud that she still has the gas in the tank.
Today, I took the day off from “work” and ran a 5-hour endurance trail run.
Back to back runs on tired feet will hopefully prepare me for 31 miles in two weeks.
The one thing that I contemplated through this all was the power of me.
I almost threw it all away.
I didn’t want to run a half-marathon and then run 5-hours today.
Heck, who in their right mind wants to do that. The half-marathon was at half-marathon pace. An exertion in and of itself.
In fact, during the start of my run today, I thought numerous times of just “calling it” and quitting.
But, I refused to.
I took the run in bite sized time increments. Half an hour after half an hour got me through.
It is amazing what one is capable of.
Truly, if nothing else, I have pushed myself both physically and mentally to expand.
I may be physically and mentally tired – BUT I AM NOT GIVING UP.
How can I give up less than 2 weeks from race day???
Here I am after just completing my 5-hour trail run.
The training continues this week, but with no “workouts” just 1 1/2 hours of runs daily.
I am either going to do the 20-mile Newport Galloway run or stay in Vermont (I will be in VT with a client on Thursday and Friday) and run 2.5 hours on the Mt. Ascutney trail system to simulate my upcoming race conditions. After that, the following week, my runs are nothing more than easy, recovery runs as I taper into the big event.
No official half marathon race photos from Sunday yet but I will be sure to post them when they are released!
Hey, please keep this ole gal focused and leave me a word of encouragement in the comments below…pretty please!?!?