“If I choose an abstinence that lets me ‘feed the dragon,’ the ‘dragon’ will get stronger…I can remind myself that I’m not powerful enough to fool my compulsion.”
My food sponsor told me that I needed to cut out all sugars both real and artificial.
I am on my second full week of doing this now and this is the most difficult thing I have had to endure.
Not only that, but my six meals have been reduced down to three.
What was she really thinking?
I guess if I picked my own abstinence, I would keep feeding that dragon and the dragon would get stronger.
This is certainly a healthier more purer way to live, but, the compulsion and the urge to say “go ahead have a low cal ice cream cone, it won’t hurt” continues to play in my head.
Feeding the dragon, I suppose left to my own devices, I would continue to do that and wonder why I compulsively over ate. It is true, I am not powerful enough to beat this food compulsion, it has me beat most of the time.